Looking Brighter

So today I feel way better than yesterday. Maybe that’s because I went to sleep pretty early. I had a bunch of annoying and slightly disturbing dreams (as I tend to do) but nothing too perturbing, I could sleep pretty well. My sleep was super messed up these past few weeks for a bunch of reasons so that probably worsened my exhaustion. I’m still thinking of taking friday off. I dunno, still on the fence about it. I’ll see how some meetings with my boss go tomorrow, but I should be ok taking it. I just hate taking days off at work so much, especially being in the middle of a campaign like now.

But the Bloodsong outline drafting is going pretty ok. I think I have a better idea of how I want the climax to go. Still need to complete a bunch of scenes which will run over what I expected. I probably won’t be able to close the book at 100k, and that makes me so sad because I’m EXHAUSTED. But also I don’t want to do a shit job just because I’m so tired, especially when all my deadlines are self imposed. Like, there’s no hurry beyond the fact that I love to hurry.

So, I’m gonna divide the groups into three and define the actions one by one so all the good guys win in the way I want them to. That’s what’s missing from the original outline and the reason why the climax didn’t make any sense to me from the beginning.

It is also the same exact problem I have with absolutely every novel I write. When, oh when, am I going to get over this and stop tripping over my own plotlines at every single climax?

Anyway, on news that aren’t Starfallen related, I’m putting together some ideas that I’ve had for a new story that I’ve tentatively titled New London. It’s a victorian/steampunk/urban fantasy mess that I’ve been trying to flesh out for a long while.

It has come to the front of my mind lately because I’ve been working on Shattered Innocence and that has a similar background to New London in terms of worldbuilding and character motivations. In fact, I’m kind of hesitating on whether or not to add it on to the Floating World series, the world that contains all of Shattered, Luminous, and Melody. To be honest, I probably could, but for some reason I kinda don’t want to. Maybe because it makes me feel a bit constrained. Or maybe it’s because I haven’t defined the supernatural side of the stories. It might be that. I probably just need to flesh out more of the story and the characters and it’ll be obvious whether or not this belongs on The Floating World.

But I hate this stage of story development, where it’s all kind of in the air…